Alright! I gotta get this off my mind. So bear with me as i'm about to rant off about how much stress i'm in right now.
We all know how hard it is to find work, let alone get a job. For the last month & a half, i've spent most of my time job searching, calling various places, and meeting with an employment consultant. He is there to basically help me find and get a job. Well lately i haven't done to much job searching because i've put in many applications and resumes. One notable location i've put in an app for is the City of Eastpointe. For the record, i've worked for that company before (note: that was when i was working at the pool for the past 5 years).
So while waiting on a call back from the City of Eastpointe, i feel that my employment consultant has been putting alot of pressure on me to really look hard to find a job. Well lemme tell you something, as much as i really want to work, JUST GIVE ME SOME FUCKING TIME AND IT'LL MAKE MY LIFE A LITTLE MORE LESS FUCKING STRESSFUL!! Cause when you put pressure on me to do something, that makes me feel rushed and when i feel rushed, then i get all stressed out and it's killing me right now.
Hell! I'm sitting here almost in tears typing this because all this stress is killing me right now. Getting a job right now would mean alot to me and to anyone out there who is giving me support and helping me out in my serach for work, i really am very appreciative of that and i thank you.
Like i said before, just give me a little time and don't put so much pressure on me (to my friends out there, i'm not saying that towards you, i'm mainly saying that towards my employment consulatant and i know i should let him know that in person, but if i say that to him, it may might make him feel a little bad and i'm not gonna to that to him).
So to all my friends, my family, and to everyone i know out there, thank you all for you support, your love, and your advice. It's helped me out alot and if there's anything you need to let me know, don't be afraid to tell me what it is. Any advice as far as job searching goes, then please feel free to let me know about that because that would really help me out right now.
Last thing i wanna get off my mind -
If i don't find work right at this time, well then i'm not going to kill myself over it. I know there are jobs other then landscaping that i am capable of doing. Plus i feel that landscaping is stressful because most companies only work from April to November. There are companies out there that work year round and if i can work for one of those companies, boy would that make me feel so releved.
Ok i gotta to take a breather. Thank you for taking your time reading this and this rant was not meant to make anyone feel offended in anyway This rant was basically meant to let you all know how this job searching is stressing me out. Hopefully i can land a job with the City of Eastpointe. If i don't, then i won't kill myself over not getting the job there. I know there are many landscaping companies out there who are looking for workers like me who have a good strong work ethic and are very interested in this field of work. My one comfort right now is that in my quest for a job, i know that my friends and family are there to give me the love and support that i need, when i need it and that i am grateful for.
That is all for now...
Have a wonderful day and god bless you all. :)